Monday, October 10, 2011

You Learn

Well, I havent really been able to update in like 4 months! Wow! Well, here is a quick run by of my life to current. I ended up getting a new car after going to Disney Land, and was working 5 days a week at the good ol DQ! I definetly learned patience and how "Reality Hits You Hard, Bro". I kept doin my own thing as school started, and was just trying to remain true to myself and the path that I was on, so I decided to continue learning about the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints and started taking Seminary in the morning before school, and that was putting me in a very good mood and making me ready for anything to come my way. Unfortunately, one of my closest friends showed me some earth shattering things that caused me to abandon all that I knew and just float on and be the person that I wanted to be, me. I had my car get hit one day at Seminary as one of my closest buddies dad pulled out of a parking spot. So I think that was a sign that I didnt belong there anymore, haha. Then I began to hang out with this really beautiful girl and get close to her, then realize that I was developing feelings for her. I would do anything for her. Hell, I even would stay out late with her just to see her. I thought that I had it all figured out, and that she felt the same about me. I really began to feel strongly about her and get attatched. I ended up taking her to Homecoming, and had a great time, even though she brought a friend with her! Ha! I just talked to her this evening about what I was feeling and told her how special she was to me, and even how much I liked her and enjoyed her company. I didnt get the answer that I wanted to hear. Im glad that we will still remain friends though. She is an awesome person and I never want to stop being friends with her, I just think I need a little time off.
On a lighter note, my birthday is only 11 days away! WAHOO!! Ciggarettes and Scratch Tickets! Haha. But really, I am actually kinda skeptical. I am scared to start real life after High School. I just hope that I make it alright! I know that with the support of friends and family, anything is possible!
Think about this in your brain space: If you truly love something, can you really let it go?

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

I'm Gonna Keep The Path I Am On

Well, I kinda had some things come up last night... lol. I had to cut some study time for an Algebra II final to go to the Texas Roadhouse and hand out some fliers, like I was told... Then I got kicked out of the parking lot and told, as I knew, what I was doing was called Soliciting. But I was just doing as I was told, and I got reprimanded for it. Now, because of being blackballed into something, we may not get the money because we went against the agreement of "NO SOLICITING". Pretty lame. Then I had some old feelings for a person come up and got my brain all twisted around. I just can't seem to let go after a year and a half, and it really sucks... So I had some old feelings come up, just as I was beginning to repress them. I love that girl so dang much and I am just to stubborn to walk away or forget. So I went to bed, after listening to some hymnals, to help me chill out. I woke up, took a shower, went to school, ACED MY MATH FINAL!!!!, then talked to a really good friend. I at that point realized, that I really can't love anyone else until I let go of my old feelings and love myself; It just isn't fair to the other party. So for a while more, as much as it kinda sucks to say, I am going to remain atypical by staying single. I just can't make another person wait for me or force myself to just change all "willy-nilly" because then I am being the controlling one or becoming something completely different from what I was "Liked" (I hate that phrase) for in the first place.
Relationships, are kinda a waste of time... unless you find the right person and then it is worth all the time in the world, and then some... I haven't found the "Right One" yet, so I will just keep looking, that is, after I learn to fully love myself and completely get over someone.

Ponder this: If you were in this situation, what would YOU do?

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

God Be With Ye Till We Meet Again

Hey there everybody! Soy Robert, como estas? Как поживаете? Ahh Spanish and Russian... my two favorite languages. Someday I hope to become fully fluent in both. 

Where to start? Well, I feel like if I have a blog and a way to just vent certain issues or just have somewhere to journal that's actually fun for me, it might just be therapeutic! I want to remain mentally healthy, seeing as I would like to someday achieve my goal of becoming a Neurosurgeon. I am currently a CNA and love helping out people by helping those who cant help themselves. 

I love listening to Metal and anything else that tickles my fancy. I am currently in a band called 70% Celt, with my friends Fallon, Avery, Hannah, and Zack. We love playing what we play and have fun doing it. 

I am currently investigating the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormon), and so far love it. I have based my faith off of people before and just recently hit a crossroads where I needed to choose to listen to what others said, or to listen to what Heavenly Father is telling me and to follow Him and do as He says instead of being led astray. And so far, He seems to want me to keep studying and attending the Church. I love it, it is orderly and is very welcoming. So for the time being, I am going to continue investigating, and hopefully soon decide whether or not it is for me. =) That is where I get the title for today's blog, "God Be With Ye Till We Meet Again." It is my favorite hymnal... good stuff!

I am so glad that this is the final week of school. As Alice Cooper says, "Schools out for summer". Odd that I found a girl who likes me before summer. I might just give it a try. But I don't know yet. I still gotta hang out with her and get to know her. Well, I am off to go do things which will change the world and my life, like go to a Band Awards Banquet.... oh joy... Well, back soon. If you have anything to say to me, shoot me a message at FB @ 

Peace out girl scouts.
Heres a question for you... Who is your favorite band, and why?